Everything's connected.... right?
Karma. Serendipity. Laws of attraction.
Worry.
I'm worried about the future. My future.
What if everything I've lived for, done, acomplished or not is about to control the rest of my life. Is that the connection? Fear? Is this even making any sense at all? Sometimes I think about all the questions I have, but I never ask them. I hold it in for fear of what the answer will be. Have I really become this numb, cold being-afriad to trust what's infront of me?
I'd rather drink a bottle of wine to myself, alone at night anymore then feel anything. I keep putting myself in these situations where I know I'll end up hurting someone, but it's like- I dont care anymore.
I think I'm destined to be unhappy and unsatisfied. For the rest of my life.
Even that sounds more morbid then intended.
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