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Everything's connected.... right?
Karma. Serendipity. Laws of attraction.
Worry.
I'm worried about the future. My future.
What if everything I've lived for, done, acomplished or not is about to control the rest of my life. Is that the connection? Fear? Is this even making any sense at all? Sometimes I think about all the questions I have, but I never ask them. I hold it in for fear of what the answer will be. Have I really become this numb, cold being-afriad to trust what's infront of me?
I'd rather drink a bottle of wine to myself, alone at night anymore then feel anything. I keep putting myself in these situations where I know I'll end up hurting someone, but it's like- I dont care anymore.
I think I'm destined to be unhappy and unsatisfied. For the rest of my life.
Even that sounds more morbid then intended.

Why do people make the choices they do? It's probably unfair of me to ask that considering I am a prime example. Is it really so cliche as to say it's 'life'?
I don't know if I buy that.
It doesn't help that I've been listening to downers all day today.
I had a good time yesterday though.
I saw Duchamp's 'Fountain'. One of them at least. They had the exhibit down at the Warhol and they really did a great job for comparing the two artists as wild and shocking for the times. I wish more things now-a-day's were more shocking.

Some of it was sad.